I`ve returned to my computer and desk again in my familiar office which is a small spare room in my home. I can hear the birds chirping outside as I place my fingers on the keyboard and peer at my computer screen ready to write my first post of 2016. I took a break from writing and social media during Christmas with the intention of relaxing. Thankfully Christmas was fun, there have been times when Christmas was too busy for me. People around me needed help with their emotions or other individuals in their lives which I was happy to give but would leave me drained. Now I go on holiday for part of it mixing fun with stress!. New Year passed over me quietly, I shared a glass of warm port with my partner as we sat and watched the fire-works around the world on television. We hoped for a good year as 2015 was very difficult for both of us.
During 2015 I suffered very severe asthma. I was on a nebulizer and seeing a lung specialist. I was put on eight courses of steroids and the final course was a massive dose that threatened my own emotional stability, too much steroids can have a negative effect on mood. I had a brilliant lung specialist, Dr O`Donell in James Hospital Dublin, who was very compassionate and well skilled in his profession. He guided me through this terrible illness. I am now much improved. I also had the care and support of my partner. Without these two people I doubt if I would have survived.
I started writing my novel in June of 2014 and by May 2015 the book was ready for editing. I am self-publishing which is a lot of work but I find it rewarding. Around the same time as I became very sick I hired an editor who was a scammer, an editing service based in Dublin. Possibly I would have exercised better judgment had I been in good health. She pretended to be editing my book through the Summer but was really not doing any work on my book at all. During my illness I had to work on getting rid of the scammer and finding a professional editor which was difficult because I was so sick. I have hired an excellent editor now, Proofreading Guy, and my book will be published hopefully in February.
What is my purpose of writing this post? In part I want to publicly thank the professionals that are working with me now. Certainly I don`t mean to moan about 2015 but I have learned something very important that will probably stay with me for many years as well as 2016 which I want to share with you. There are some conditions in life that happen to everyone, it is just a result of living on this planet and illness is one of them. It`s not a punishment.
I have learned that if you trust yourself and your own intuition that it will guide you to the right people and the right behaviors to help yourself. You may take the wrong path but your direction can change and you can make the right choices again, life can get better. You don`t have to be afraid in life. You will receive the help that you need, when the time is right. I hope to always remember this lesson.
I wish all of you a really great year this year!. I hope what you want in your life will manifest for you and that you find only good things arriving in your life.
Happy New Year to everyone!